I can no longer vent on my twitter or my Facebook because I don’t wanna hear how things will get better. I just need to vent. I don’t want to be told life gets better and to work harder. I do work hard. I bust my damn ass. I have so much shit going on at home that I can’t think straight most days. Like I realize I’m not the only one with problems in my family, but no one seems top get it. My depression plays a big factor in this and it sucks trying to stay focused when you can barely get out of bed. And why is it that people are so damn dramatic. Why are you happy one second and because I walk out pissed off and upset, you’re all of a sudden depressed? Screw you. I’m so blessed, yet I can’t get out of this shit. I’m beginning to see no point. None. I’m just done.

Today is just one of those days, ya kno? Stressed out, depressed, exhausted, annoyed …

Sometimes, some of my tech girls keep me going … sat with some great girls at lunch today and laughed for almost am hour and a half; walked alone to my car and immediately got in a shitty ass mood. Just wanted to punch the first person that looked at me wrong … that kinda day … It’s amazing what friends can do to make life better and bearable. I’m in awe at the friends I’ve made this semester alone … I’m not sure where I would be had they not been here to support me thru this knowing exactly what it’s like to be here and do what we do.

Today is the last day of my first semester of veterinarian technician program … between some of these tech girls and God, I pray I’ll get thru it.

(Source: teenagahworld)